My first year of college my friend Tristan put this together. We rock that year we went to national with my best friend Jordan James. But yeah that was or should I say is one of the highlights of my life.. Thanks Matt.

Since the trip to Costa rica something has change. Maybe within me or something or something feel off when I was over there. I can't quite put my finger on it but something new. If you don't know I have dreams and I believe that is how the Lord speak to me when I am not listening and in my stubborn do it myself state of mind, and while I was down there in Costa rica I was having dreams.
Job 33:14-18
14 But God speaks again and again, though people do not recognize it. 15 He speaks in dreams, in visions of the night when deep sleep falls on people as they lie in bed. 16 He whispers in their ear and terrifies them with his warning. 17 He causes them to change their minds; he keeps them from pride. 18 He keeps them from the grave, from crossing over the river of death.

Need I say anymore. If you understand these verses you can see how stubborn and do it myself I really am and how the Lord speak to my heart..He warns me But anywayz upon my return there is a young man name pete who the Lord put in my path. I meet him while I was at work just sharing the gospel on the job. I love doing that. The Lord is just calling this young man I could just see it. After talking to him that one day he would frequently stop by just to talk and listen to the Holy Spirit because that who was speaking it wasn't me but Him. So a few months past and yada yada yada.. Anyways as I return from Costa rica this young man called me up just wanting to get together and just talk. Well we did and the question he was asking me whoa! I could see that this young atheist man was searching and the Lord was drawing him by His Holy Spirit in a personal way. I didn't know what to say but the Lord did. All I am able to do is share my testimony in how Jesus revealed himself to me in a personal way. I am just a refer ee to the one and only true Lord and Saviour. Jesus. Upon that talk with pete I gave him a bible and encourage him to read it and if he needed anything I would be there for him with pray or whateva. It was awesome. The Lord faithfulness in this young man, and in all our lives. He put him in my life to step my game up.. And that what the Lord is going.. Be ready in and out of season

Pray for Pete

Well as you can see I haven't been on here in a minute. The last couple of nights I have been staying up real late. Due to the fact that Mountains Dews and candy keep me energized. That is beside my point, but I am currently reading a couple of books at this time. One you probably have heard of which is Apostolic Foundations by Art Katz which I am reading at a very slow pace. I am also reading this book by Ervin Raphael McManus called Soul Craving which is really interesting with me right now. I mean interesting by what he is expressing, revealing, and sharing. This book unlike Arts is more like a journal. It just entries of testimonies I might say; His journey. Its pretty interesting to read if I might say. Intimacy, meaning, and destiiny...
Over all these book have been really helpful in my walk thus far... I am still waiting though

You are dead until His life appears

I haven't been on blogger in like a minute people I apologize. If you did not know I just moved out of the frat house and I am living with my brother in the house I grew up in. A step of faith living on my own and with my brother. Just trying to still get situated and clean up and in order. So yeah, So I will let everyone know whats new in due time.. Meanwhile I am bumping the new Cross Movement - History ..
Can anybody spare some change?

Well I have not blog in awhile, but I have started reading this book like the many other books that I have in my arsenal. Its called The Hidden Life by Adolph Saphir. I just thought I would post this paragraph and see what you all think of it so ... there you go.

"The godly man hates the evil he possibly by temptation hath been drawn to do, and loves the good he is frustrated of, and, having intended, hath not attained to do. The sinner, who hath his denomination from sin as his course, hates the good which sometimes he is forced to do, and loves that sin which many times he does not, either wanting occasion and means, so that he cannot do it, or through the check of an enlightend conscience possibly dares not do; and though so bound up form the act, as a dog in a chain, yet the habit, the natural inclination and desire in him, is still the same, the strength of his affection is carried to sin. So in the weakest sincere Christian, there is that predominant sincerity and desire of holy walking, according to which he is called a righteous person : the Lord is pleased to give him that name, and account him so, being upright in heart though often failing." -- Archbishop Leighton

I am the True Vine–John 15:1
All earthly things are the shadows of heavenly realities–the expression, in cre-
ated, visible forms, of the invisible glory of God. The Life and the Truth are
in Heaven; on earth we have figures and shadows of the heavenly truths. When
Jesus says: ”I am the true Vine,” He tells us that all the vines of earth are
pictures and emblems of Himself. He is the divine reality, of which they are the
created expression. They all point to Him, and preach Him, and reveal Him. If
you would know Jesus, study the vine.
How many eyes have gazed on and admired a great vine with its beautiful
fruit. Come and gaze on the heavenly Vine till your eye turns from all else to
admire Him. How many, in a sunny clime, sit and rest under the shadow of a
vine. Come and be still under the shadow of the true Vine, and rest under it
from the heat of the day. What countless numbers rejoice in the fruit of the
vine! Come, and take, and eat of the heavenly fruit of the true Vine, and let
your soul say: ”I sat under His shadow with great delight, and His fruit was
sweet to my taste.”
I am the true Vine.–This is a heavenly mystery. The earthly vine can teach
you much about this Vine of Heaven. Many interesting and beautiful points of
comparison suggest themselves, and help us to get conceptions of what Christ
meant. But such thoughts do not teach us to know what the heavenly Vine
really is, in its cooling shade, and its life-giving fruit. The experience of this is
part of the hidden mystery, which none but Jesus Himself, by His Holy Spirit,
can unfold and impart.
I am the true Vine.–The vine is the living Lord, who Himself speaks, and
gives, and works all that He has for us. If you would know the meaning and
power of that word, do not think to find it by thought or study; these may
help to show you what you must get from Him to awaken desire and hope and
prayer, but they cannot show you the Vine. Jesus alone can reveal Himself. He
gives His Holy Spirit to open the eyes to gaze upon Himself, to open the heart
to receive Himself. He must Himself speak the word to you and me.

Just a little study I have started to read it by Andrew Murray. Enjoy..

I have been listening to this song alot the past few days.
I wanted to post it and hear your feed back about these lyrics..

How Do You Love That Way lyrics

I must have made you cry a million tears
used in your mercy for a million years
you'd think by now your grace would disappear
(That's why you call it love)
You spread your arms across eternity
you shed your blood to buy my liberty
you fight for me with all intensity with an undeniable love

How do you love that way
I need you to teach me to love that way why do you love that way
whatever you do don't stop (please please don't stop)

Addicted to my selfishness and greed
Thinking my foolishness could meet my needs
Pulled up flowers tryin' to make room for weeds
but it doesn't approach your love I'm so crazy
you just correctly try to slow me down
rain on me softly when my leaves are brown
resuccitate me when I hit the ground
so tenacious with your love (tell me how)

(Bridge)
I wandered and wavered a ship lost at sea
I treated your mercy so frivolously
Yet an ocean of love you poured over me
(your love won't stop)

by holding me lord you're showing me
you're teaching me and Lord I plainly see
your love indeed, it amazes me
whatever you do don't stop

why you would smile upon this broken man
It blows my mind I just don't understand
For the love I need is in your nail scarred hand
whatever you do don't stop

Writers block...

Anyways I found this in on blog on myspace. I wrote it down from Bruces Sermon. Its one of my Favorites..

Why are we listening to the devil more than God? DO we need help people? Seven lies that usually affect us here they go. Compliments to, you know where I got this from if you remember. Thank you

1. God does love you. / Whenever you hear that "God does not love you" Its not from God. Their is victory in Jesus. YOu must win the victory in you mind,

2. God cares about other more than He does you.
Come on people. Really what God Loves is Faith. *(EVERYTHING) Put your Faith in the works of Jesus.*

3. God cannot be trusted
Again Everything, Put Your trust in God.

4. Your not good enough to be blessed.
YOu are blessed in Christ Jesus. YOu can't do enough to be blessed. Their must be something else blessing thana performance.

5. God's against you
If God is for you, who can be against you. Jesus has prophetted you.

6. Things will never change.
God makes all things new.

7. YOur situation is hopeless
With GOd nothing is impossible. FOundation of your Hope is Jesus Christ (HEBREWS 7:19)

Romans 8:31-32
"WHAT SHALL I SAY TO THESE THINGS"

J-rock

"What does it take to love my fellow man
His troubles are the same as mine
Why is it so hard for us to understand
that love transcends all space and time"

The last time.
Well its the last step that I am going to take. Faith is what it is. Faith is what's going to be and faith is what its going to take. Obedience is the next or is it the same. Obey and follow despite what everyone else does or says. Obey who ? Obey you ? Who shall I obey? Certainly not you who is telling me what to do and what not to do. Your just a man right.. HOw can man ordain his step correctly according to the Lord Jesus Christ. The Living God of this Universe. To ask another question what is wisdom? Better than gold far more valuable than silver. Wisdom to live a right and justly life in reverence and fear of the Living God. Wisdom and Knowledge huh! What is this gift of grace the Lord Jesus has bestowed upon me. Its funny, in a matter of fact that I know I have these gifts but don't take them in to consideration. But anywayz ...
Well my heart hurts and I kind of know why. Well beside the fact that anything that is good happens to me or I am please with seems always to backfire for my worst. Since I have been a so called born again spirit filled believer, yea blessings have occurred but when i maybe decide on something it ends up a wreck. I have done worst things since I have been born again. Sometime I feel like I am Chief of sinners just like Paul. What the deal with that. Can somebody tell me why? I ask the Lord but silence is what I hear. Silence is where He is speaking. The voice in me the underling echo of my shatter image I hear. Desperate for the answer but I wait in dispair. Can anybody hear this cry one last time?

My heart is alive already. What am I doing then. I have really come to realize that my life is a fight. It is a struggle it is a fight.. A fight!! Like seriously we really do take it for granted that we are saved. That we are alive in Christ Jesus. That are hearts are depraved and wicked. Yes it really is, and yes it really is sick. I really can't explain what is on my mind and heart. The reality of the glory of God. The presence day reality of God with us. We take that for granted and just go about our average day lives. Am I really ready for this? The word became flesh.....

I have been reading up on Watchmen Nee on the meaning of the world in his book "Love not the world" I have been enjoying it so I thought of you all and wanted to post it. The link is at the bottom so enjoy.

The Mind Behind the System

Now is the judgment of this world: now shall the prince of this world be cast out. And I, if I be lifted from the earth, will draw all men unto myself" (John 12:31, 32).

Our Lord Jesus utters these words at a key point in his ministry. He has entered Jerusalem thronged by enthusiastic crowds; but almost at once he has spoken in veiled terms of laying down his life, and to this heaven itself has given public approval. Now he comes out with this great twofold statement. What, we ask ourselves, can it have conveyed to those who have just acclaimed him, going out to meet him and accompanying him home on his ride? To most of them his words, if they had any meaning at all, must have signified a complete reversal of their hopes. Indeed the more discerning came to see in them a forecasting of the actual circumstances of his death as a criminal (verse 33).

Yet if his utterance destroyed one set of illusions, it offered in place of them a wonderful hope, solid and secure. For it announced a far more radical exchange of dominion than even Jewish patriots looked for. "And I ..."-the expression contrasts sharply with what precedes it, even as the One it identifies stands in contrast with his antagonist, the prince of this world. Through the Cross, through the obedience to death of him who is God's seed of wheat, this world's rule of compulsion and fear is to end with the fall of its proud ruler. And with his springing up once more to life there will come into being in its place a new reign of righteousness and one that is marked by a free allegiance of men to him. With cords of love their hearts will be drawn away from a world under judgment to Jesus the Son of man, who though lifted up to die, is by that very act lifted up to reign.

"The earth" is the scene of this crisis and its tremendous outcome, and "this world" is, we may say, its point of collision. That point we shall make the theme of our study, and we will begin by looking at the New Testament ideas associated with the important Greek word cosmos. In the English versions this word is, with a single exception shortly to be noticed, invariably translated "the world." (The other Greek word, aion, also so translated, embodies the idea of time and should more aptly be rendered "the age.")

It is worth sparing time for a look at a New Testament Greek Lexicon such as Grimm's. This will show how wide is the range of meaning that cosmos has in Scripture. But, first of all we glance back to its origins in classical Greek where we find it originally implied two things: first a harmonious order or arrangement, and secondly embellishment or adornment. This latter idea appears in the New Testament verb cosmeo, used with the meaning "to adorn," as of the temple with goodly stones or of a bride for her husband (Luke 21:5; Rev. 21:2). In 1 Peter 3:3, the exception just alluded to, cosmos is itself translated "adorning" in keeping with this same verb cosmeo in verse 5.

(1) When we turn from the classics to the New Testament writers we find that their uses of cosmos fall into three main groups. It is used first with the sense of the material universe, the round world, this earth. For example, Acts 17:14, "the God that made the world and all things therein"; Matt. 13:35 (and elsewhere), "the foundation of the world"; John 1:10, "he was in the world, and the world was made by him"; Mark 16:15, "Go ye into all the world."

(2) The second usage of cosmos is twofold. It is used (a) for the inhabitants of the world in such phrases as John 1:10, "the world knew him not"; 3:16, "God so loved the world"; 12:19, "the world is gone after him"; 17:21, "that the worldmay believe." (b) An extension of this usage leads to the idea of the whole race of men alienated from God and thus hostile to the cause of Christ. For instance, Heb. 11:38, "Of whom the world was not worthy"; John 14:17, "whom the world cannot receive"; 14:27, "not as the world giveth, give I unto you"; 15:18, "If the world hateth you ..."

(3) In the third place we find cosmos is used in Scripture for worldly affairs: the whole circle of worldly goods, endowments, riches, advantages, pleasures, which though hollow and fleeting, stir our desire and seduce us from God, so that they are obstacles to the cause of Christ. Examples are: 1 John 2:15, "the things that are in the world"; 3:17, "the world's goods"; Matt. 16:26, "if he shall gain the whole world, and forfeit his life"; 1 Cor. 7:31, "those that use the world, as not abusing it." This usage of cosmos applies not only to material but also to abstract things which have spiritual and moral (or immoral) values. E.g., 1 Cor. 2:12, "the spirit of the world"; 3:19, "the wisdom of this world"; 7:31, "the fashion of this world"; Titus 2:12, "worldly (adj, kosmicos) lusts"; 2 Pet. 1:4, "the corruption that is in the world"; 2:20, "the defilement's of the world"; 1 John 2:16, 17, "all that is in the world, the lust ... the vainglory ... passeth away." The Christian is "to keep himself unspotted from the world" (James 1:27).

The Bible student will soon discover that, as the above paragraph suggests, cosmos is a favorite word of the apostle John, and it is he, in the main, who helps us forward now to a further conclusion.

While it is true that these three definitions of "the world," as (1) the material earth or universe, (2) the people on the earth, and (3) the things of the earth, each contribute something to the whole picture, it will already be apparent that behind them all is something more. The classical idea of orderly arrangement or organization helps us to grasp what this is. Behind all that is tangible we meet something intangible, we meet a planned system; and in this system there is a harmonious functioning, a perfect order.

Concerning this system there are two things to be emphasized. First, since the day when Adam opened the door for evil to enter God's creation, the world order has shown itself to be hostile to God. The world "knew not God" (1 Cor. 1:21), "hated" Christ (John 15:18) and "cannot receive" the Spirit of truth (14:17). "Its works are evil" (John 7:7) and "the friendship of the world is enmity with God" (James 4:4). Hence Jesus says, "My kingdom is not of this world" (John 18:36). He has "overcome the world" (16:33) and "the victory that hath overcome the world" is "our faith" in him (1 John 5:4). For, as the verse of John 12 that heads this study affirms, the world is under judgment. God's attitude to it is uncompromising.

This is because, secondly, as the same verse makes clear, there is a mind behind the system. John writes repeatedly of "the prince of this world" (12:31; 14:30; 16:11). In his Epistle he describes him as "he that is in the world" (1 John 4:4)and matches against him the Spirit of truth who indwells believers. "The whole world," John says, "lieth in the evil one" (5:19). He is the rebellious cosmocrator, world ruler-a word which, however, appears only once, used in the plural of his lieutenants, the "world rulers of this darkness" (Eph. 6:12).

There is, then, an ordered system, "the world," which is governed from behind the scenes by a ruler, Satan. When in John 12:31 Jesus states that the sentence of judgment has been passed upon this world he does not mean that the material world or its inhabitants are judged. For them judgment is yet to come. What is there judged is that institution, that harmonious world order of which Satan himself is the originator and head. And ultimately, as Jesus' words make clear, it is he, "the prince of the world," who has been judged (16:11) and who is to be dethroned and "cast out" for ever.Scripture thus gives depth to our understanding of the world around us. Indeed, unless we look at the unseen powers behind the material things we may readily be deceived.

This consideration may help us to understand better the passage in 1 Peter 3 alluded to above. There the apostle sets "the outward adorning (cosmos) of plaiting the hair, and of wearing jewels of gold, or of putting on apparel" in deliberate contrast with "the incorruptible apparel of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price." By inference, therefore, the former are corrupt and worthless to God. We may or may not be ready at once to accept Peter'sevaluation, depending upon whether we see the true import of his words. Here is what he is implying. In the background behind these matters of wearing apparel and jewelry and make-up, there is a power at work for its own ends. Do notlet that power grip you.

http://www.worldinvisible.com/library/nee/lovenottheworld/contents.htm